I have a family history of bi polar and depression. At 17 I was kidnappped and raped. After that I began counseling. Many doctors have given me MAOI, SSRI s and similar drugs. These only increased the fatigue and caused side effects that were worse. I was able to live at home while recovering through a very public trial. The people had attacked 13 others. Luckily, I saw their face and managed to survive. I went on to earn a Bachelors in Psychology. Through research and trial and error I hae found that weaning myself off the drugs have helped tremendously. I have a beautiful home, wonderful children and everything I could want. I am definitely not unhappy. I am however, tired, distracted and often have trouble following through on projects. Recently, after an injury I noticed when taking small amounts of codiene I was able to function at a level that is not manic or depressed. The house is clean, kids are on honor roll and I enjoy my time with them even more than before. Could this be an effect of an increase in dopamine that is low in my system? If so, is something available to test my level and prescribe a medication to increase my dopmine level safely?