Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
It is likely that your symptoms are due to a psychological cause - probably a depression
or anxiety-related problem. Moreover, it's clear that you are quite stressed out and are in significant distress. Also, since you've had a recent history of depression for which you discontinued medication permaturely, you have a risk for relapse of symptoms. So, I would strongly advise you consult a psychiatrist
for a detailed psychological assessment and further treatment. There are effective treatment options - in the form of medication or counselling
which will help you overcome your problems.
Wish you all the best.
- Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar