Question: dr seikhoo bishnoi please. today this woman who helped XXXXXXX file the injunction came to the massage bed place and was sickeningly sweet to me, again. i was so upset i almost asked her about XXXXXXX which wouldnt be a good thing. she could get me into a lot of trouble legally and with XXXXXXX i am so upset i dont know what to do. and XXXXX counselor is trying to split us up. she thinks i am bad for him and is trying to ruin our living together. i am calling for a family meeting with my counselor.I took two zanax, six gaba and one zyorexa to try to calm down.

Thank you dr B. I took two xanax and i feel better. Took a nap in fact.
I hope she doesnt come in for awhile. a part of me keeps thinking we will get back together and part of me doesn't.
I am thinking of calling the messianic rabbi. I hope he forgives me for the angry email and lets me come back. I need those people. But if he doesnt I will be really sad. We are supposed to forgive one another.do you think I should?
a lady who comes there connected with me. Its been almost two years since I talked with her so that was good.

Thank you Dr B. I talked with the messianic rabbi and he said sure we could come back which makes me feel really good...i have missed him and all the services...a friend from there talked with me and I feel really good today. i also talked with XXXXXXX about XXXXXXX and he had a really good way of explaining the thing with XXXXXXX to me. He and others have noticed that I am doing a lot better despite my missing XXXXXXX XXXXXXX is like a ticking time bomb and I am so happy for all the support we are getting now...my therapist, the messianic rabbi, the reform rabbi and the group support are really helping me.. XXXXXXX feels pretty alone but I am going to try to get him to come back with me to Ahava the messianic congregation...I still hurt a lot about XXXXXXX but my therapist, XXXXXXX was able to explain a lot better to me what is happening in XXXXXXX .he says marriages are rare in schizophrenia and that enabled me to see a bit better what is going on with him....I am still sad though but not at bad as formerly. I think you are right....I am glad to be going back to the messianic congregation and hope to start being able to read again..I have good books to read just haven't done it yet...thank you so much for your help....


I am feeling sad again about XXXXXXX My counselor said calling himself a serial killer to XXXXXXX wasn't a joke but rather something that just popped out of his mouth. a friend of mine said that the police are probably keeping an eye on him because he has called them more than once and they know something is "off" on him mentally. I have a card from the police officer who gave me his business card and told us to stay away from him or he could file a no trespassing order


I feel sad that XXXXXXX is so bad off..my therapist said that he wasn't joking when he told XXXXXXX that he was a 'serial killer' and a friend told me that the police were probably keeping an eye on him as he has called them several times now on us and has also filed an injunction on us. The police were really nice to us a few weeks ago when he called them and we went and talked to them about him to show them that he is a bit off mentally. They told me to stay away or he could file trespassing charges but they were really nice to us and gave us a business card with a case number in case we needed it. They didn't give XXXXXXX a card because he wasn't there but they did me....they were especially kind to us...as though they knew that he was off. i told him that he was hearing voices telling him it was his job to kill people that he is a paranoid schizophrenic so they have heard our side of the incident....I am feeling so sad again today about it all...i wonder when I will forget him...i loved him so much..my therapist said that schizophrenics rarely get married but i told him that Michael's wife probably ensured that he stay well or on medication. But she has been dead over four and a half years ago now....so he isn't getting better he is getting worse....how do i stop thinking about him again..I was doing okay until yesterday and now i am feeling really sad again...

Thank you Dr B. I wake up missing XXXXXXX and try to forget him as i go about my day.I am looking for a place to live with XXXXXXX still without much success though it seems more places are beginning to open up. i need financial help and the clinic helps me with that.
The rabbi whose congregation I am going back to is a different one whom we used to see together XXXXXXX and me. he said that XXXXXXX is meshuggah and that was why we left there. I know four rabbis but this one is messianic or christian. He saw XXXXXXX and I together.
So his sudden outburst that he is a serial killer is not a joke then? He was just trying to cover his butt is what XXXXXXX thought when he spoke to the police. they seemed concerned for us and were very nice to us.
I am tired all the time now and just want to sleep not work. I have been taking my medicine but it is hard to do that and still do things. On the other hand if I don't take anything then i am very anxious.Somedays I don't want to get up to do anything because I am so tired like todayl..

I just found out that my ex isnt going to pay me until Monday. I am down to my last $50 till then which means I can't see my son XXXXXXX either and cannot get my medicine either. I don't want to use my going to Israel money either. I am really down about my living situation...less food no more food until monday.