Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Masturbation
is common and normal. Masturbation cannot harm your health if done moerately. But it can harm your mental health if you are ill informed about it. In that case you become anxious and obsessive to those negative thoughts. Now, your best action is to consult your psychiatrist
and let him choose the course of action. Work with him.From the given symptoms, paranoia
can be diagnosed. But that is not all. These symptoms also could manifest if you are stressed, hugely disappointed or obsessing these thoughts. Therefore differential diagnosis is required which can only be provided by a trained psychologist / psychiatrist. Researches proves that medicines alone cannot cure anxiety disorder. Along with medicine you should practice psychotherapy
techniques to streamline your life style and meditation
and yoga techniques to calm your mind, body, streamline your metabolism
and thinking style. Please consult a psychologist
If you still need my help, please describe the whole problem in detail and post a direct question to me. I shall definitely help you with psychotherapy techniques to over come your problems.
Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.