i'm 39, already had a partial hystorectomy at 26, then ovaries taken at 34. i took hrt for 6 months then winged myself off them...worried of side effects. haven't taken them in 5 years. i believe i have many issues and their all mental! no, literally...i don't sleep well, to get any decent sleep i take a sleeping pill (which i hate taking pills), i'm angry or sad 1/2 the time...the other 1/2 i'm so stressed i literally sweat from anxiety. i have no motivation but i work a full-time job and a part-time job. i ALWAYS work...i don't lay out, i'm productive (generally) while at work. always smile, laugh and interact with people in a positive way (i believe) but inside it is completly opposite. i've had a dr. tell me i have ocd and anxiety/depression. i have done something in my past that is illegal and i really beat myself up about...i'm 'trying' to make it right, best i can but it's still guilt....and it's all about money....everything is about money. i feel uncontrolable and today is one of those days i just want to crawl under the covers and cry! i'm suffering, my teeanger daughter is suffering and my marriage is suffering...i always feel like neither of them help around the house. i try to exercise, walk, video areobics but it only last a few days because i just have no motivation to continue...what can i do to change???