I have had "grand mal" seizures since age 14 (I am now 50) but have been told I do not have epilepsy. I have no memory of the seizure and the aftermath. When I "awake" I am told I get up, run through the house, scream as if in fear of my life. I have taken chairs and smashed glass table tops and committed other violent acts before I am lucid. If people try to restrain me I become violent (or, in one instance, someone tried to help stop bleeding from a cut I got and I almost threw her through a second story window). I have "auras"/blurred vision before a seizure. Sometimes I have the aura and don't have a seizure. Can you help me? Every seizure endangers my life and the lives of those around me. For all I know, my family has PTSD.