Helo Dear Do not call yourself as looser that give a negative feeling within which will hinder your treatment Basically it is your Dys-thymic personality which is a type of chronic depression with low mood where a person evaluates himself always below the bench mark and consider his own performances bad and much below the others A Clinical Psychologist will be a of great help . Many treatments are available. Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT) is one of them available almost all over being performed by the therapist and patients improves .Be sure the therapist is trained in CBT On your part you try to develop positive out look about self Drugs are not of great help but please get in touch with a psychiatrist to discuss about the drug In my patient I would have added SSRI group of drug Be Positive Dr Lal Psychiatrist