Brief Answer:
PTSD

Detailed Answer:
Hey,
Its really OK to talk about it. What you have suffered through is a major time trauma, and you need to release the tension by talking it out and discussing with your psychotherapists. The strange habits that you have developed as a result of the trauma is the body's reaction to release the tension. First of all you need to move away from the source of trauma. You have a dependent personality and that is why you have been attached to that offender even though he offended you.
First thing is you move away from him once and for all. You can report him if you want but its up to you. You need to take control of your life which you haven't done so far.
You seem to be afraid that if you are left alone, you won't be able to survive which is not true. Human beings are born with great survival potentials. Just put yourself in a position and you can do the hardest thing that you may not even think of doing at this point. So trust yourself more than anyone else. Take Control!!!
Now on to your real problem of PTSD, I can see you have already been using escitalopram( lexapro) which is an SSRI and on top of that you have also used a short acting atypical antipsychotic quetiapine ( Seroquel). For medications, all I would say is may be you want to change escitalopram (Lexapro) to flouxetine. Research is more in favour of flouxetine thats why and please keep using these medications, if you stop one day now its going to get worse. Please use them atleast for a year. Please go see a psychiatrist about it!!!!
Next thing as I see you have been to some therapists for psychotherapy. Cognitive behavioural therapy along with Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing(EMDR) is very helpful in PTSD.
Please know any kind of substance use and alcohol is a complete "NO" from now on. If you keep on using them, you can never think of a better future.
Hey its OK to fall in life, to be torn apart, its only telling to you to get yourself together and to rise up like a XXXXXXX from ashes and be stronger than you ever were. What would have been life if not full of troubles!!! Try to find light in the dark
Dr. Khan

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Brief Answer:
take care!!!

Detailed Answer:
May be its time for you to get yourself together and rise up more like a strong woman which you are !!!! Best of luck with your treatment. Yes many problems can put along together to mess your life just the same way you can make little things together to make your life as beautiful as it ever can be. Its your time now to work on it. Thank you. Best of luck for your future.

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