Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Your condition needs deep assessment. You are very good at other things like education. But you suffer from social anxiety. I sincerely think the case should be due to very low self esteem and self confidence. Need to take psychometric test to determine the perfect cause. Treatment using psychotherapy is simple and effective. Engage in public activities one at a time, slow and steady. You shall see improvement. This method is called desensitization therapy. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.