Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. From the description you gave, I am to understand that you have some sort of adjustment problems and apprehension about speaking in public. This may not amount to classic case of anxiety. But can be categorized as general anxiety. Still need proper diagnosis. Therefore do not jump guns. At times you are very confident, and that is what counts. Gain confidence from those positive incidents and those experiences helps you to be bold. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.