Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. First of all you should find out what is the reason for your depressive behavior. Psychiatrist or psychological counselor should help you on this aspect. Once the reason is known, it becomes easy for the therapist to treat you using psychotherapeutic methods. Depression could be simple dissatisfaction or disappointment. May not be deep clinical depression. During the period of Disappointment some related problems like anxiety, restlessness, lethargy, laziness, self harm etc, are normal. This type of simple depression is normally self limiting. Keep yourself motivated. Learn positive lessons from the past. Keep those lessons as confidence building tonics and use them more often. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.