Hey, today I've come to this site to attempt to resolve my problems. From the period of September to now I've been having a lot of suicidal/self harm thoughts. The reason? I don't know. I've been very depressed since the beginning of Summer, but never thought it would lead to suicidal thoughts. Also in the week prior to Christmas I had a very strong urge to lose weight. I think I am overweight personally, but after researching average weight for my age group(15), apparently 77 Kg is pretty normal, however when I look at my body, it doesn't look average. In the past week I haven't eaten anything apart from dinner, I also don't drink anything apart from water mixed with salt after dinner in an attempt to throw up the food I have eaten, for the last 2 nights I have been very week and have been constantly vomiting during the night, I also can't sleep till about 6, and wake at 10. I haven't told my parents or anything as they would be disappointed, but I really feel I need help. About 4 days ago I met the prettiest and nicest personality girl I have ever met, quite frankly she is the girl of my dreams, however she lives in England whilst I live in Ireland, I honestly like her that much that I would quit school to move over to be with her. Times are great when we speak, but when she leaves I go back to my old state: Depression, dieting problems, suicide, etc. I also have exams in 4 weeks that I am stressed about, but I can't cope with depression, not eating, being weak. About 30 minute prior to this I was in my bathroom with a knife, but I wanted to wait for professional advice before harming myself.