Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. The symptoms which you are mentioning here are not necessarily of paranoia or depression. You could just be stressed and anxious. Being stressed or being anxious could never be equal to paranoia or depressed. You need to make a perfect diagnosis. Please do not diagnose self. Consult a trained clinical psychologist / psychiatrist. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.