Question: I've been a chronic pain patient since 2008. My doctor moved out of state in 2000. I have experienced great frustration with finding a doctor ever since. I've gone from being a well respected health care professional in excellent health to a stay at home blob. I have tried everything my doctors have asked of me and alternative ways to rid myself of the progressive debilitating pain. I've gone cold turkey 2 different times because the doctors wanted to reinvent the wheel without success. Doctors at the pain clinic treat me like a drug addict looking for my next fix. My back pain has continued to progress and as a result, other body parts, knee, feet, are now causing more symptoms. The neuropthy now has me looking for the "scooter" when I go shopping. Had a surgery in 2010, lamenectomy and decompression of S1 S2 L5 L3. Felt great for 1 week. Many hours of PT with minimum success. I have exhausted all savings, suffered a bankruptcy in my search for pain relief. I could go on and on. My doctor of 4 years refused to write a script for hydrocodone during my first visit with him. "It's the only med that has helped". Instead he put me on morphine sulfate. Now I have lived a life of living in a morphine for the last 4 years. I HATE IT! When I asked about changing back to the hydro, his exact words, "I don't want you to become addicted". What a crock! So, why haven't I changed doctors? Very few doctors in this area want a chronic pain patient on medicare. If they do accept a patient like me, they are full and are not taking new patients. I've passed every urine test required for the doc to continue to write my script . 60mg twice a day of morphine er. On my last visit to the doc, 7th time in 4 years, I told him I need to get off the morphine. To my XXXXXXX he changed me to 10mg oxcytin 2tabs a day. Experienced withdrawal for 2 weeks with no relief from the pain. I increased my dose to 40mg for 2 days. Probably the best 2 days I've had in years. I know you or anyone else will say I probably should not have done this because of overdose. Like I said 120 mg of morphine for 4 years would make me opioid tolerant. Now, I wish I didn't have to take any medication, but, ..... Now it appears that 40mg 2x's a day will help with getting some of my life back. What's the best way for me to communicate with my doctor. Please help