Question: I have been suffering from low feeling for quite sometime now. Find myself tearful most of the times and end up crying a lot in the nights, losing out on sleep.
I get irritated with even the small things with my family, who is only my dad now, my sisters are married and mom passed away 10 years ago.
Since I am 34 and single, I get disturbed a lot with the thought of leading a life alone. Couple of years back one person approached me for marriage but his family did not agree, we still keep in touch and he is now married and has a kid too. When I msg him and don't get a reply, I feel sad and when i send msgs repeatedly, he gets annoyed, I understand that when he is with his family he cannot make time for me. But I feel nice if I get to hear from him, even a simple reply makes me feel fine. But he does not understand. He has also taken a big amount from me, which is topping to me cut contact with him once and for all.

My family, i.e., my dad does not care for me as much as he cares for my other sister who is married and settled in life. If I raise any question regarding them, his words hurt me. Its like his priority is only my other sister and not me, even though I take care of his medical requirements and he stays with me. He does not have any financial back up. Whatever he got form his retirement, he gave them all to my sisters.
Even the small things, if I have to buy from my own money, he makes a fuss about it, but he willingly gives anything to my sister and their family. My only support is my 2nd sister, even she is sometimes very mean. But disregard a few things as I need someone beside me.

Couple of days back I was going through the depression symptoms on the net and have most of them. This has been the case from the past 2 years, off late i.e., from the past 3 months or so, it has increased. I cry a lot.

In the beginning, I thought if I share my problem with someone, I might feel better. But it made me even worse when 2 of my close friends told me that I think only I have problems which is actually not the case. I am matured enough to understand that everyone has problems in one way or the other. I have now stopped discussing anything with anyone. My outburst at nights have increased and after crying for sometime which is very intense, my headaches and I suffer a lot not knowing what to do then. I just hold my head and sit up right and walk up n down.

I used to read books, make origami flowers, watch n listen to songs, watch movies. But now in a day I am not able to complete reading one page of a book or any of those things I used to do.

Please suggest a way forward, should I consult a physician ?