Question: Hi there.
I'm am a very seriously affected diabetic, 32 years old. I have been prone to suicidal thoughts over the last ten years or so, due to many poor life decisions having screwed much things up, but for the last few years it has gotten worse and worse. Last november I suffered a stroke which left me without any major issues, exept for my fine motor skills in my hands which has forced me to give up my hobbies which quite frankly was what kept me interested in life. Worse of all, for some reason, last summer my... Well... Private organ deided to give up. I woke up after a three month period without any sort of actual interest in sex with an unmotivated erection, but the problem was that what I saw was nothing I recognized. It was half the size from what it used to be and pointing in a wierd direction. Next issue: About four years I became friends with someone from the opposite sex that has since become my very best friend on this earth. However, I have also been in love with her since then. About a week ago, I found out that she was interested in me as well. She already has a boyfriend though, and due to her insecurity and ADHD, she is in serious need of stability and security, I lost her and she stayed with him. This really feels like the last drop. She was the first one to accept my sexual disorder and we had superb sex despite my issues, I will never be able to trust anyone of the oppostie sex to come close again. I have no hope left. When I have spoken to the medical proffessionals in my country, noone takes me seriously, and I guess I suppose I can understand that, since my story frankly sounds stupid. Please help me, otherwise I will use my considerable stock of nitrazepam and ensure that I will never wake up again. I have no hope what soever left, but I have also promised her not to do this, but I have not told her that I intend to do so. Please, help...