Hello. I used to take Seroquel because I couldn't sleep due to a bully that threatened my life from high school. My question is am I going to be okay?
I smoked weed about 4 months ago because I was trying to find other ways to go to relax to go to sleep. It was a VERY bad experience. Depersonalization hit BIG time and ever since then things have been shaky. I've heard many people online say they have been through the same thing and they still feel high and just detached from time to time. I stopped my Seroquel BECAUSE of the feeling that I was dreaming. I have been able to sleep a LITTLE without it but...I'm just hoping what I'm going through now is only withdrawal. I stopped it almost a week ago. I don't know...I guess I don't really have that much of a point but...I just get so anxious and... Do you think I'm just stressing myself out? CAN cannabis give you any long term post-tramatic..thing? I'll freak out every so often. I think it’s stress. I refer to these things as "flashbacks." Sometimes if I'm feeling uneasy, that's when they happen. I can sense it. It’s overwhelming yet at the same time I feel it’s only an illusion in my brain. And when it happens..the depersonal/psychosis feeling…it’s just so intense. I don’t have the ability to think. I know I’m not schizophrenic because I don't hear voices or see things. I was prescribed Seroquel because it was a last resort for a sleep aid. But I think I’ve opened up a portal in my mind that I can’t ignore when I smoked that weed. Some unreal unsettling hell in my mind. Everytime I tell myself that I’ll be okay and that I smoked weed so I’m just having anxiety..it DOES get better. And these "flashback feelings" do go away if I place my mind somewhere else. SO I CAN shut it off SOMETIMES. BUT…I haven’t been sleeping THAT great. Do you THINK..that over time and with healthy sleep that one day I will just forget about this bad weed trip? I’ve had them in the past, but they were never this haunting. I now know drugs are not for me. I think I’ll be okay. I just..wanna have your opinion on it and I want to know if you think I should be on any medication. MOST of this I FEEL is just anxiety due to unhealthy sleep and maybe my brain can recover if I just let time run it's course. It's a harsh reality but at least I'm not ignoring that I have a problem.
I started taking Unisom last night so…hopefully if I keep taking that every night until I learn to have regular sleeping habits…Idk…I hate this whole “it’s all in my head” thing. Cus sometimes..it doesn’t seem like that. It seems that the scary drug induced reality that I was in was real. Maybe it WAS real but…well..I know that I was high but...idk it could be ptsd. Maybe I’m scarred. I just don’t know. I dp get depressed thinking about it ONLY because I don't want to live or cope with this.
So I guess the question is…are these intense anxiety feelings going to go away? Maybe if I take up a sport or just tire myself out so I can sleep without any drugs…I just feel insane. Alone, scared, insane..yet I COULD be perfectly fine. I just hate this dreamy feeling. What do I do?