I think I have depression. For the past 9 years of my life, I ve felt worthless, down, and like a human sloth. I have little motivation to do anything, and no matter how hard I try I always feel like I m failing. I don t consider myself of much importance, and I never put myself first before anybody. I was never abused, I ve had loving parents and a great life, but I just can t find joy in everything. I feel hopeless. Are these signs of depression? I ve taken several online tests for depression and they all say I have severe depression. What should I do? I would prefer to avoid antidepressants, but I need something to make me feel joyful.