Hello......I am a 24 years old M. Tech student ......I have following problems : 1) In my early childhood I was very shy and not able to eat and speak in front of people other than my parents. I was not able to speak in school and many people thought that I was dumb. Although I stood first or second in class..........I could not speak in school , even after the beatings of teacher. When I went to College to do B. Tech. I started speaking a little, since there are new people who didn t know about me, but now I only answer the qustions asked by someone in minimum words and it was always a embarrasing moment when it came to speak in front of the class. Today , I hav a little improvement but I am not able to live a normal life and not able to speak in interview . I think I have not enjoyed the life as others do.and I am not able to make friends....I have noone to share my feelings.........what to do 2) From 3 years, my eyes are brimmed with tears and I becomme emotional most of the time I go out of the home for some work to deal with people .....while actually there is no reason to cry.....this also happens when I see someone crying in TV shows or in reality. or when I didn t llike something or when someone other than parents argues with me . 3) I have to think some things forcefully and repeatedly...........such as thoughts of abusive language about some respectable person come in my mind spontaneously and unwantedly and then I have to ask God for forgive me and about long live of that person.......since I have never abused anyone ....... but I have no control on the thoughts coming to my mind and therefore I have to ask God to forgive me. and thoughts such as about wishing God health and long live of my family members. I have gradually developed this problem from about 9 years when I first time saw human death in reality (of my father s brother). As a result, today I have lost concentration in studies and not able to do my project work. 4) I lost my attention while riding or driving due to unwanted thoughts and has no confidence of driving or riding , therefore I have to go by using publc transport and wait for that. While my younger brother who is 6 years younger than me goes every where on vehicle and enjoys with his friends . This is developing feelings of hopelessness and inferiority complex in me. 5) I have lost my will power and I don t study even if I know it is necessary and I scratch my face unwantedly due to this. Hence, my face now has spots which further lowers my self confidence. 6) I am feeling that due to forced thinking, my ability to understand complex things is decreasing . And I take more time in doing tasks which other people complete in less time. 7) I didn t feel fresh (as I felt before 10 years) , no matter how many hours I sleep. All day I feel sleepy. All these things have affected my life severely . I don t understand what to do. Sometimes I feel that my life will go waste. Please help me since my father has died of cancer 3 years ago and I am the elder son and I have to support my family . Nobody is able to understand my problems and they say that I have no problem .I know that I am able to achieve a lot in my life if I get rid of all these problems.