Brief Answer:
Complete evaluation advised with frequent psychotherapy sessions

Detailed Answer:
Thank you for asking

I read your question and i understand your concern. There is no harm in getting evaluated for organic causes for any psychiatric manifestation so please visit your doctor and let them run some tests. Suicidal tendencies and extreme depressive phases however needs thorough psychiatric evaluation and upgrading the doses and medications and with frequent visits, psychotherapy sessions and rehabilitative program. Hang in there and hope for the best. Visit a best psychiatric facility and find distractions for yourself to stay happy like out door games, exercise, good social welfare activities, charities , giving life reason to live helps get rid of these tendencies. Let your psychiatrist help you in this regard further.

I hope it helps. Take good care of yourself and dont forget to close the discussion please.

Regards
Khan

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