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I went through your description. I suggest you not to worry much. You noted, "no one seems to know what this is?" That means, you had been to so many physicians for this problem. I suggest stop worrying. When the physician says that you have nothing to worry, why doubt their capability? They are capable and that is the reason they are in that position. You are just 20 and should have some more better things to do than sitting and thinking and worrying. You must not have anxiety
You might need psychotherapy
and other cognitive behavioral therapies
. I can help you through telephone. Please do contact me through customer care of www.healthcaremagic.com for a telephonic consultation session.
Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.