I HAVE SUFFERED WITH DEPRESSION FOR YEARS BUT DR S/PSYCHIATRISTS HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO HELP. I VE TRIED PRETTY MUCH EVERY ANTIDEPRESSANT THERE IS. I ALSO SUFFER WITH ANXIETY, AND ADD. I HAVE ALSO TOLD IT S POSSIBLE THAT I SUFFER FROM PTSD. MY PSYCHIATRIST HAS TOLD ME THAT HE HAS RUN OUT OF OPTIONS OTHER THAN LITHIUM OR ECT. LITHIUM ISN T AN OPTION AS I HAVE HAD KIDNEY DISEASE. I AM RELUCTANT TO TRY ECT AS I HAVE POOR MEMORY ALREADY. I HAVE HAD NEURO-PSYCHOLOGICAL TESTING TO CONFIRM MEMORY ISSUES. BECAUSE I AM GOING THROUGH A 4 YEAR DIVORCE, THEY ARE SUGGESTING THAT THIS IS A MAJOR CONTRIBUTOR TO THE DEPRESSION. I DISPUTE THE FACT THAT IT IS THE DIVORCE AS I HAD DEPRESSION PRE-DIVORCE AND BELIEVE THAT THIS MAY BE A MAJOR CONTRIBUTOR TO THE DIVORCE. I AM AT THE END OF MY ROPE TO THE POINT THAT PSYCHIATRIST, MENTAL HEALTH NURSE AND THERAPIST ARE THREATENING HOSPITALIZATION AGAINST MY WILL! I RECENTLY CHECKED INTO GOING TO THE MAYO CLINIC FOR HELP BUT BECAUSE I VE BEEN IN A MVA AND AM DEALING WITH MY INSURANCE COMPANY THEY TOLD ME THAT THEY WOULD NOT SEE ME AS LONG AS I AM DEALING WITH MY INSURANCE COMPANY. I BECAME HESITANT AT THIS BEING A RESOURSE BECAUSE OF COST. I HAD BEEN HOSPITALIZED WITH IN THE LAST YEAR HOWEVER THAT PROVIDED SOME REPRIEVE BUT NO ANSWERS. I AM PRESENTLY ON 15MG ZOPICLONE, 100MG ATTARAX, 400MG LAMOTRIGINE, 1MG PRN CLONAZEPAM. TO HELP WITH PAIN I TAKE 4MG HYDROMORPHONE, 20 MG RITALIN, 50MG LOSARTAN AND 125mcg OF SYNTHROID. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD A VERY HIGH TOLERANCE TO MEDICATION. THIS IS NOT BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN ON IT AND IT S NO LONGER EFFECTIVE. THE FIRST TIME I EVER TOOK MEDICATION AS A TEENAGER, THIS WAS THE CASE. I HAVE ALSO CAME TO DURING 2 SURGERIES. ANY DR. THAT HAS EVER TREATED ME HAS FOUND THIS RATHER INTERESTING. I AM CURIOUS IF THERE IS ANY PLACE THAT I COULD GO TO BE POSSIBLY HOSPITALIZED OR OTHER FACILITY THAT WOULD PROVIDE ME WITH AN ASSESSMENT AND POSSIBLE TREATMENT? BEING THAT I AM FROM CANADA, WILL I BE ABLE TO RECEIVE AN ANSWER FROM A SPECIALIST AND WHAT WOULD THE COST BE? I AM CONFUSED ABOUT THE WAY THE FEES ARE LISTED.