Hi, You are reacting to much psychological stress, anxiety, combined with your physical disabilities from your CP that have developed over a very long course of time. You haven t said anything about the types of doctors who are following you or medications you may be taking/physical therapies you may be engaged in, but in my opinion it is not likely that your brain is changing fast so much as your feelings and sentiments are coming out more and more. It would help you considerably, in my opinion, to have either a counselor/therapist/psychologist whom you trust to be able to talk to about all your feelings so they can help you develop ways of channeling these emotions in a way to benefit you. Perhaps, medication would be of benefit. Perhaps, you are already on medication that could be resulting in side effects as well. I do not think that the chemical imbalances in your brain are beyond correction or improvement. Are you trying methods and approaches when you get angry of deep breathing, mental imagery, or even more hands on techniques that you can learn such as BIOFEEDBACK, meditation, and even YOGA which can help with loosening up some of the left side which is probably suffering from spasticity? Hope I have answered your query. Let me know if I can assist you further. Regards, Dr. Dariush Saghafi, Neurologist