I do not know if this is depression but, I had a shit life and sometimes I want to kill myself and, I miss the old happy days. I don t want to go to school, I don t want to eat, sleep, anything. Sometimes I can be happy but then I go back to the depressed me. My heart aches so much and I can not breathe. I don t want to live, I don t want to die (well it s complicated...I want to die if it means no heaven or hell....I just never want to exist again). I don t want to exist.