im suffering from depression my doctor has put me on citalapram,at first it was guilt from things ive done in the past, then it went a whole different route, i started to think intrusive thoughts and started to think im a peodophile,i have two kids and love them to death,have never had anything like this in my life before,but its killing me,i truly feel that because these thoughts pop up there must be a reason, im paranoid, feel like i am one,id kill myself before ever being one.but i hate that i cant enjoy my kids growing up because im treating myself like a peodophille,i get really paranoid and every time i have a thought ill chech my underwear to make sure no physical emotion has taken place, i dont want to live like this and i dont know where its come from