will someone out there please help me. my name is Neesee I am 35 and I was diagnose with multiple sclerosis last March. I began taking care of my grandpa on decembe 11, 2010. I had to remove him from an abusive situation. He is blind with emphysema and cancer. I wasnt in any position to take care of him, but i had no choice because I love him. Everyone else left and not a soul helps. The only thing good about grandpa being blind is that can't see me cry when im struggling to button his shirt. I cant afford any medical for myself and im always scared. I want to be okay at least until my grandpa passes. He was given six months to a year to live back in august of 2010. The only thing that makes since to me is suicide only after grandpa dies. You would never imagine how big my family is and how no one cares about grandpa. He was a world war 2 veteran and no one can find his info for his burial. How am I gonna save for his funeral by my self. Anyway I would like to get adviice on how to kill myself.