Question: Dr Seikhoo Bishnoi please. How will I know if its okay to go to XXXXX store on Sunday/ If he doesn't chase XXXXXXX out of the store? Or should we both go there together/ Im afraid to do that though...Im really getting nervous about it...I mean how will I know if its okay to go up and see him? My therapist thought we should call but he is paranoid about phones. I think he thinks they are ringing and people are talking to him all the time. He dislikes television too.

The owner of a blog told me that XXXXXXX can easily file another injunction against me and through the force of law has said he wants no contact with me so we should leave him alone. But that is the problem. He is always alone. The court is on his side so we could get another injunction on us again. That is not something I want to happen but you have always been right about this stuff. I shouldn't see him this time though right? I should just let XXXXXXX see him this time? XXXXXXX will come down and tell me what is going on.

I feel hopeless that he won't want to see me ever again and in that case I could find myself against restraining orders year after year. I am not sure that XXXXXXX will be able to know if it is a bad idea to see him or a good idea...I feel hopeless about XXXXXXX and sad as he could always just want me to stay away from him and never want me to see him again at all. If he gets threatening or intimidating to XXXXXXX then XXXXXXX will call the police but I will just be waiting in the car downstairs in the street. I wish that I could have had that order vacated...the law will always be on Michael's side now not mine...i still wish I was dead sometimes but not as much as I did...I feel like I did something wrong when I emailed him...seeing him in person has always been the best way of communicating with him.

If XXXXXXX says he is okay we will maybe go to his store on a different day again together as i don't want to be alone with him yet...I can leave whenever I want to then. Its sad because when we first started dating I felt okay around him when we were alone and he was with me every day...now he is possibly dangerous and not able to decide many things for himself...he can't relate to customers and i had hoped to help him with that...maybe this is totally over and I need to accept it for what it is a dead relationship with an untreated schizophrenic who will never get better....maybe there is someone else for me in Israel if I ever get there....and if I do get there...there is nothing i can do work wise...soon Jesus will come and those of us who believe in Him will be with Him happy forever no more tears no more sorrow no more disappointments.


So in your opinion XXXXXXX shoud go to his store first.then if he brings me a good report I could go with XXXXXXX a different time and see him? I don't want to rock the boat and can wait until XXXXXXX goes a different time with me.i don't want to be alone with him until I know it and he are safe and he won't get violent. if he asks about me that would be a good thing otherwise i will just wait.

If XXXXXXX doesn't want to see me then by next year he will be gone. he is closing his store next year and we won't be safe trying to go to see him at his home. Then he could call the police. XXXXXXX thinks he will not want to involve the police again...it was traumatic for him also.. XXXXXXX thinks he hired a lawyer because he didn;t know what else to do and is stressed out by all of this too,,,it is stressful for anybody.

Okay i will try not to overthink this too much .I have already lost him anyway. I would feel better if i knew for sure we were moving to israel even though XXXXXXX would still be here....it is harder not seeing him when we live in the same small town..I am feeling afraid of what might happen on Sunday when XXXXXXX goes to Michael's store. He might not even be there though. Sometimes he has his women employee work his hours...I am just glad its almost time to go to bed,