Also, I left this out which is a lot to explain, I was addicted to
Xanax for 8 years, now this was 4 years ago but I went to a
rehabilitation center to come off of them. But, I was prescribed 2mg bars 3 times a day for 8 years. With this being said as I was in the hospital detoxing all my organs shut down but the doctors brought me back immediately. 2 days after I went into the rehab home which isn’t medical. Well, I couldn’t do nothing for myself eat, bathe, nothing. A second time my organs shut down and I went about 2 mins and 38 secs with no
oxygen. It took me a Good 3 months for my brain to even work again. I didn’t know how to take a bathe, warm up a bowl of soup, how to have sex, nothing. When people talked I felt crazy I knew what was coming out of there mouth before they said it. I felt like I was all alone and no one understood what was wrong with me. A little after 3 months I started remembering things not everything but I could watch tv again and it made since. I could go back to church. This was in 2015. Now. I am not the person I was but if u just met me u wouldn’t ever know. Accept. Now I am adhd, add, ocd. Bad. And no doctor wants to put me on adhd meds. But, even my mother says I can be doing 10 things and trying to get ready and in late all the time bc of it. Not only now I can’t hear loud noises, or an iPhone ring. It does something to my body, there are times that I cannot stand myself bc I get so aggravated with the things I do. But, I can’t help it, I never used to be a home body. I never hardly leave the house. And I can lay in the bed for 3-4 days at al time sleeping and I get up no energetic, sometimes
cold sweats,
dizziness and I jus have to lay back down. Not to long ago I did nothing to my foot but it swole up and
bruise and pain from 1-10 it was an 8. I went to doctor and they said I had
gout. I no longer drink sodas. I usually just drink apple juice for about 2 months now. And, this is not who I am. I’m not happy I’m constantly in pain in my hips and legs and back. Which my back was injured in a wreck 3 years ago 2 vertebrae were messed up I can’t remember exactly what the paper work said but they acted as it wasn’t a big deal. Sent me home with a neck brace for 3 months. I jus want to know why the doctor keeps trying me on all these antidepressants and it hasn’t helped yet only gotten worse especially my adhd. A lot of people think I am on some type of drug bc of how I act. But I can’t help it and this is driving me crazy. It’s hard surviving day to day