It's caused by ziprasidone
. It and my brain and my soul want to masturbate to transgender fiction, because I have a part of my personality that's feminine, due to both physical disability
and also my mother and sister who both have challenges of their own. Although obviously as I'm writing this, I do own the problem in as many dimensions as I can name. I am trying to develop better habits, whether that be reading or beta blockers, or meditation
, or reiki
, but the beta blockers make me weak and unstable esp. at night and therefore I have a psychological barrier to taking them. Let me know if my mental attitude is not sufficient for treating this condition, because I am happy to try to modify it.