Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
You should be in a very bad shape having all these bad and negative habits. Smoking 15 cigarettes a day, masturbating three times a day for 14 years, Anorexia, Constipation
, varicose veins
, anxiety and of course depressed.
Why are you living carelessly like this. I presume you are a loner, no friends, no one loves you or no one is loved by you, you are at your mercy.
Wake up now. Change for your good. Consult a general physician soon and then a psychiatrist
Get well soon.