i wanted to know if i have social anxiety, i wont go to the doctor because it makes me feel stupid and i dont like talking to people about my problems because i am afraid to be laughed at, so this was the only way, it started about two years ago once i left school to go to college and i had no friends, id get really nervous walking into rooms that were silent and people were in there listening to the teacher talking, id get really upset and start to cry. i also get really funny eating alone in front of people so i refuse to do so. i also have a presentation soon and im getting myself worked up before its begun because i really really cant stand in front of people and talk. i find that i can only talk to people who have the same hobby as me and so when it comes to normal people, i nervous laugh because i dont know what to say. when people laugh at me for something i say i get really upset and my knees start shaking and my heart pounds. i joined university and made friends but i still worry for the future where i wont be able to apply for a normal job because how will i talk to people? im also really scared to go to far places alone without a friend and sometimes when i go to a cafe i ask a friend to buy stuff for me because i cant talk. also often i find it nerve racking meeting new friends online and it takes a while for me to open up but then the next week we meet again ill go back to being not able to talk. also lately ive always been to tired to do the things i love and all i feel like doing is laying down on my computer.