Hi there ~
I understand your concern. It may be helpful to relieve your anxiety
by getting a screening test done for sexually transmitted diseases. This can be done with confidentiality in many clinics. I strongly advise you to find a doctor that you can trust to get the testing done. I hope you also consult a psychiatrist
if you have problems with any other condition that is affecting your mental health condition. I hope this helps. Take care and have a lovely day!