I feel more comfortable asking about this here, I feel like people won t take me seriously or believe me, I m scared of judgement. I have known for six years (I am now 19) that I have diagnosed depression, and anxiety. However as I ve gotten older my symptoms have changed and I feel like I m not sure my diagnosis specifically suits me anymore. I want to ask what form of depression I have since this was never discussed with me. Also any possibilities of another mental disorder that may make more sense to my situation? A summary of how I feel majority of the time would probably be hopeless, suicidal, depressed, lacking energy, anxious, and tired, I feel a loss of reality, I don t feel real and often feel as if I am just walking through a dream. I sometimes (more recently but also occurring over time) have been experiencing hallucinations, paranoia and imagining things that aren t there. For example I see things that aren t there, hear things that aren t there, I have heard voices that have told me to do things, and this often results in panic attacks and I feel embarrassed and ashamed because I know it isn t real. Aside from mostly feeling severely depressed, I sometimes (rarely like once a month) feel elated, I gain motivation and I ll tackle everything in life that I ve felt too depressed to do. I impulsively do things that may be reckless (drink excessively, take drugs, make large life choices etc.) I feel confident which I never feel, I feel somewhat superior and better than others. I take care of my hygiene excessively which I don t do often, I decide things like that I am going to go to university and move out and during my last phase like this I quit my job to pursue my dreams. I impulse buy items which I later regret and feel irritable. This usually doesn t last long (usually for like a day) and then the next day I go back to my usual depressed self, somewhat more depressed and feel a sense of disappointment and guilt for not following up on the things I vowed to do, and hate myself for losing motivation. Sometimes I self harm in the form of cutting. When I feel high I still don t really feel happy, it feels false and I get energy but I don t believe I feel happy. More erratic, unstable etc. please if you could help with a diagnosis (formal or not) it would be much appreciated in assisting me with a better suited approach. I have also been on anti depressants for 6 years. Thank you in advanced.