Heyy, I'm 18 years old from Egypt, so you know.. Here we're not independent or live alone unless you're married. So anyways, I cannot deal with my mother any possible way, we fight soo much, she never cares about how I feel and it is totally acceptable for her to embarrass me infront of anyone. She lies, and she does other things that she asks me not to do. I've been before to a psychiatrist with my my friend and he called her then we went for about a month or so, life was much better as he was the one responsible for me studying or not. I thought about escaping really alot, but I have nowhere of my own to go, and I know that if I will ever be found or back I'll be screwed. I'm joining college in a month and she is depressing me every possible way. Everyone tells me I am sociable and that they love how I never get pissed off and always smiling amd this kind of things, but I feel like I'm not able to fake it anymore besides that I don't want anyone to feel pity for me. I love her so much, I just HATE how she deals with me.