I am a 15 year old, I ve been severely down on and off for the past 2 years and in that time have self harmed throughout, developed an eating disorder otherwise not specified, anxiety and also have attempted suicide numerous times. I am now also getting what I can only describe as hallucinations where I think someone is watching me, I get seriously paranoid and often see odd movements and things in the room that no one else can I see if on the occasion I have the courage to ask anyone. I just want to be happy and want everything to go away, and I m so scared of myself again because I know if I just leave everything like I ve always done and as ever pretend that everything s fine, but I m reaching that point where I can t even do that. I feel hopeless, useless and completely out of control of my own life. I don t know what to do anymore. What do you suggest? Is there something wrong with me or am I just another teenager with low mood as people always tell me? (Of course they know barely any of what I ve just said though)