Tell people who care about you - parents, teachers, friends, friends parents, people at church...counselors - whomever. You don't have to go through this alone.
Also, 14 is a VERY rough age. What you're going through is most likely really normal. So don't be ashamed. The fact that you've reached out online is a GREAT first step. Just don't stop there. You'll be relieved to know that there are ways to overcome depression
. You don't have to feel like this all the time.
Good job kiddo! I hope my kids are as resourceful as you are. Best of luck.