Welcome to health care magic
I can understand your situation. I appreciate your effort to seek online support.
As per your details, you are possibly having depressive episodes. Following treatment strategies would be helpful-
1) Antidepressants like SSRIs (escitalopram, sertarline, paroxetine etc)
2) Antianxiety agents
like clonazepam, lorazepam, alprazolam etc
3) Psychotherapy/ Counselling
4) Relaxation techniques
like yoga, meditation, deep breathing etc
Don't worry and relax. You have to see a qualified psychiatrist
for detailed work up and treatment.
Hope it helps
Dr. Gourav Monga