Thanks for your query.
It seems like you are suffering from antenatal psychological problems.
This is a common happening in some women, when they experience undue stress
related to their pregnancy
You need to consult an obstetrician and have medications for your reflux, which is easily treatable.
You can try counselling
or behavioural therapy in consultation with a good Psychiatrist
You should not feel guilty about relying on your mother and husband, as family support is crucial during pregnancy.
revel in the positivity of giving birth to a new life.
Try and take interest in your work.
Indulge in daily exercise, walk in fresh air, try yoga and natural healing remedies.
Take fresh, organic food daily.
All the best.