Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
Your doctors are actually right. Over and above they are your correct judges. You should not worry too much about the treatment given to you by the doctors. If you start doubting, then you are going to have hallucinations
Secondly time and again it has been proven that medicines alone have little effect on schizo affective. You should get psychotherapy
practice. I can help you online iof you desire so.
Get well soon.