Thanks for your query.
I read your query and I understand your concerns.
Following is my reply:
1) You seem to be having retrogarade ejaculation.
2) Please give your urine for testing immediately after having intercourse. if there are sperms in urine, those sperms can be used for ICSI
and you can be a father.
I hope I answered your query. I will be available for any follow up query you have.
Dr. Mahesh Koregol
IVF & Infertility