Hi there ~
First off, your tryst with MDMA did not go well and I discourage you from ever doing it again. Also alcoholism
is in itself something that can cause you to have or increase the number of anxiety
attacks, i.e. when you are not taking that drug (alcohol). Please consult a good substance abuse
counselor. Also Crohn's disease is easily treated with anxiolytic medications and complementary and alternative medication like ayurveda. Please consult a specialist who will help you with these ailments. Iron supplementation can be obtained over the counter. I feel like you will benefit hugely from visiting with a psychiatrist
. I hope this helps.
Take care and have a lovely day !