i do not want to do marriage till some time may be 1 or 2 years till iam confident about my self as iam 30 years now .i think i can stay without marriage till that time but i have a small brother who is  29 i can let  em do marriage before mine i think that is not wrong i dont want to be a hurdle to him. is my thought correct??? i need some time to flush of all negative thing that are in my mind for life long till date !!! what ever the facts or my illusions i want to earase them! there is a hope i have seen it months ago wen i was working freely for couple of days  with out  any stress and feelings.. can any one tell me can i do it, let society tell any thing but i hav to be justice to myself ,myfamily and if any one whom i might marry!!

i dont want to make a mess again like in banglore i lost my mind completely just wandering without aim ,hope and spoilt my health and my familys too.

its totally a night mare!!! i want some time or more it s good to start perfectly if it is late also .and also i need place change (probably reachable distance to himalayas in a day time)can any one tell me any good spot in between delhi to himalays where there are are IT companies and and cheap real estate>