Hi, Welcome to HCM. I have gone through your query and I understand your concern regarding the effects bartonella infection has had on your life. I empathise with you and I suggest you make some lifestyle changes to make things easier for you. You have not mentioned the treatment details you have received for this infection. Bartonellosis can be very debilitating and may cause severe fatigue in many individuals. Such individuals need counselling and you need to practice some relaxation techniques to decrease your anxiety. A regular low intensity exercise regime can be inculcated in your lifestyle slowly to elevate your mood and also make you stronger and fit. Get in touch with a nutritionist and plan a high protein diet. These tips will help gain your health and aide faster recovery. Wishing you fast recovery. Thanks.