I am near penniless, in a room 'till the end of the month. I'll be homeless again most likely,. that's just for starters, I have SO MUCH MISERY put on me, I am near breakdown...
I can't sleep although more than 3 hours a night, if that. I've gone days w/ o sleep when w/o ANY medication . I've suffered this for nearly 10 years now. Ii am currently on Zolpidem. Am told by a the pain mgt. Dr., it probably won't be re-prescribed. My high Blood pressure, under various ever changing prescriptions (last from family health centers) is TYPICALLY 190/105. Pain mgt Dr. won't see me. On mild tramodol only. Pain Mgt DR. can't see me to continue ANy treatment of Sciatica of r hip & as of LAST WEEK the left also, completely untreated. ...and... upper neck/spine issues. I am crying in pain, can't sleep, not wanted where I am at, psycholog. abused here, Family doesn't really give a flying f*5k, I am a 'loser'
Periodontal disease which is even more painful & times. There is MUCH, MUCH more. I can't do anything to help myself anymore. I can't afford to ride a bycycle out of here until I get afew $$ from disability. I am in so much pain...AND...am deemed w/ depression / anxiety....and ...I believe I am despised. Oh yeah, hypo-thyroid weight gain , psoriasis. (That helps !!!!)

I have love in my heart. I do not ever want to hurt anything. I am not addicted to anything or evn use recreationally. I drink very little & have a firm Faith in God. I hope to appreciate what I have but I've been overcriminalized by the judicial system, falsely charged & # few times. (When you are poor or victimized by a 'chattel' system , it's VERY easily done to someone like me. ) Falsely charged of Rape/kidnap 18 years ago by my wife, false dom. viol. Rape/ kidnap were ebentually dropped (My 'wife' in Ohio who accused me was an alcoholic daughter of a city judge. She was looking for 'sympathy' because she being evil inside @ the time)Many charges were eventually dropped because they were lying for attention (Another girl 5 years ago set me up w' police under false accusations) ...and there's more.

Nobody cares but I still try & give