I got breast cancer in 1998 went in for a hernia surgery, was scared, so I mentioned 2 lumps on my left chest top and side, under armpit, dr sayed stage 3 going on 4, 8 months to live, or entensive chemo now surgerys and ragiation, at the timemascectomy too, I was not one tyo be deformed, argued never. by the end of chemo, she said they felt like peas, and a lumpectomy instead,, I was always petfified it would come back, after 9 years I kinda started to, then 2 half years ago startedfeeling weakand loosing weight, last winter my little Chihuahua starting jumping on my chest, in the shower noticed lrg lump this time on my right side. went in for 33 mam shots and a 45 min ultrasound,still for 4 more days my little girl wouldnot stop jumping mainly on my right chest, started feeling around, under my right collar bone was a hardmarble sized lump, went into surgery it was already growing into my lyhmpnoids, taking 3 this time, it took 4 surgerys to stop this growing out oif control lump,during all this they weredoing all kinds of tests on my left, too much scar tissue to see, finally injected dye and put me in the m.r.i. machine which showed cancer in my left original spot, still growing, exact spot,13 years prior, they could only remove it,only my right side could be radiated now n forever so they did that,two months ago started feeling pain in my upper left lung, made a apt withmy surgeon, he was only a breast surgeon, said if its bothering you in 2 weeks we will do a xray, I was in shock, with him letting me leave, by this time I was having a hard time breathing out of my leftlung, panicked called my medical oncologist and told her, she thenext day had me go for a xray, they said they could see something, but there was to much scar tissue to know, that s when she had me injected with dye 3 hours befor chest and full bone scans, she found 2 spots on my bones, now thinking bone cancer, and had to find a pulminologist for my left lung,it wasmade for june 3rd, the next day they called and said tomorrow instead, went in with the xray cd, we looked at it together, my left lung is very big, small heart, lines threw my leftlung, and c.o.p.d. too, so now on inhailers too, still have to go back he wants to give me a catscan, then see him after the scan,its beennow 18 years having this disease, now its spreading, im petrified of needles and hospitals, buthaving it sinve 1998, and all this happening now, can it get worse, should I be doing anything tolive longer, anything I can do to slow this down, or stop it from spreading anymore, im panicked and don t know what to do next, or if this means its coming to a end, does anyone there know by this letter what my chances are, or how many more years do I have left, or, am I thinking tofar ahead, but with everything happening, im more than petrified,i need some real amswers, or opinions, im on chemo still, and still kinda sick still, but am I doing everything right, or is there other thingsi can do to prolong mylifethank you Dar