I am stubborn and irritable, I often hate my life and then hate myself for hating it. I get mad really easy, I procrastinate, and can t handle my homework or my life. I have been like this for almost 2 years now and its driving me insane. My main issue is the destructive relationship i have with my mother. Her personality bothers me a bit but she has some of the same issues i have and more including procrastination, stubbornness, she can t stop criticizing and yelling at people and i at all costs avoid her. I am a little to open with my feeling about her and her actions, but whenever i try to contain my anger it just makes it worse and i end up blowing up at her about the stupidest things. Even when i tell myself i hate her i really just want her to care, to be proud, to love me. Whenever i try to make her proud she just says its what i should be doing anyways and expects more from me and criticizes what i did. She is often illogical and selfish and won t listen to reason. It takes me an insane amount of will power to stop trying to hurt her because often by trying to hurt her i end up only hurting myself. I was getting better and i made some friends but even though i stopped causing problems for myself the problems i was reacting to still existed and sucked me right back in. I can t handle it anymore, any advice?