Hello, I am dinesh from Nepal , I have been taking different medicines for 12 years of my mental illness. My PD said I were in mild depression in the beginning. As I continued my medication my illness relapse after two years. My PD told it might be bipolar ii, he prescribed lithium and prozac, it worked for two years. Since my kidney responded differently he changed into valporic acid. And it has been two years I am on lamictal and duezala. It has been 8 years I sometimes think obsessively about killing life but I feel its just shortcomings . Sometimes I feel hard to cope. Most of the time I remain calm. But sometimes it makes me sceptic on others as well as creates anxieties. Pl help me with best suggestions!!! regards, dinesh