Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Though it is difficult to diagnose your problem from the given description, I presume that you are stressed and anxious. You are disappointed due to some life events which you never expected to happen. Such a disappointment makes you lazy, intolerant, mildly depressed, tired, sleepy, low self esteem and low self confidence. Hallucinations are normally byproducts of obsessive negative thinking. From the description, I also note that you have a lot of spare time which makes you idle and thinking too much. Ignore those halucinations for a week or so and they vanish. I agree that your condition is a bit complicated, but I sincerely think that this condition is common and hundred percent curable. Understanding life and learning how to enjoy life are the keys. You can learn these by observing your past experiences, elders, surroundings etc. You can also visit a psychological counselor for further advice. If you feel that I can be of help to you, feel free to post a direct question to me and am obliged to serve your cause. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.