Hello, I am currently suffering from blurred vision from time to time I have a family history of diabetes however I only have had some symptoms. When I was 13 I had a whole 4 months where every so often I would just crash, and be unable to even move my pen on my desk. I d just collapse and need to sleep. When I was 14 I tried piercing my ears repeatedly, and when I was 15, however they all got infected. I ve also noticed I drink a lot of water, more than other people, but overall i find i don t drink much more than what you re meant to drink? I m not sure. I also have cross eyes, I think this could cause my blurred vision perhaps, but I m not sure why I would now develop a cross eyed. When ever i take photos from whatever angle i notice that i m becoming more cross eyed. I feel like my eye is strained. Is it a complication of diabetes? I don t do much exercise, but since i ve started panicking about diabetes I am eating very healthily and doing more exercise. I ve always walked a LOT. A lOT, i mean a LOT. however recently I moved from the countryside in england where you have to walk a lot, to florida. I loved my old school and really really loved it, however my whole life I ve had severe to moderate anxiety, depression, night screaming ( i never remember the dreams) but also schizophrenia, i hear people shouting my name a lot, or saying things, however this is also a symptom of diabetes. I was bullied as a child, and my mother suffered from depression having me, and used to hit me and get very angry irrationally. Also at school I was an infant terrible, however i left there thanks to my dad who sent me to a very nice liberal school, as they realised that school wasn t working for me. Iw as bullied there as well for a time, but then became the bully, and finally i settled down and became a happy and nice person. But the anxiety was always there, and i ve found a way of expressing it in art. Anyway moving from this place this school where i had all my friends and a security blanket, (it was a boarding school so i never really went home, and when i did i would shut myself in my room and slump into depression) i moved to florida, and back in with my mother. The people in florida aren t as friendly, they just don t say hello really at school. They re quite cliquey and i find myself struggling even more with school work. My mother is also a massive arsehole and very moody and depressive at times, something i didn t ever want to experience again. I experience severe panic attacks, certain things can make me cry almost on the spot, but rarely do. My old school was not academic, it roused on the arts, however my new school is highly academic and i ve found I can t focus on art that much, and that my mother doesn t want me to do art or design (I could at my old school because i wasn t at home EVER i was in an environment that encouraged it and i could do as i pleased) plus I can t have fun anymore. I don t have friends and the friends i do have are really very boring and academic. at my old school they were very interesting, funny, artistic, creative. I m not saying these new people aren t nice, but as an already very shy and nervous and scared person, i am easily intimidated and i doubt i ll make any friends. at my old school i could run riot and had the freedom to do as i pleased, not riot so to speak, my mother always made sure i did work hard and such, but i never really engaged with anything i found boring. I got all A s but only because i m highly intelligent, if i d engaged i would have done so much much better. I don t mean to be rude, my mother and father are both intelligent, but also creative. Crazy creative, they wrote poetry, wrote a blog that back in the 90 s had a 1000 readers, back when the internet was a foetus! They only kept it for a year before shutting it down, i mean it s a lot for just a year, especially in the 90s. they took a lot of drugs, had a LOT of fun. but my mother wanted me to have the same upbringing as her, and i know that there is a lot of my parents in me. However since moving away from all i hold dear, i ve found i suffer. No friends, no family really, although i m understanding my mother better, as having friends gave me perspective, and the internet has taught me a lot about childhood trauma and such. so i want to know, would my cross eyed ness be diabetic blindness, or am i not going cross eyed, am i going blind, or is it caused by stress. is this even possible? I hate american school, and i can t wait to leave, i have a house in london near an arts university where i know a lot of my friends are going too, and i can t wait to start out in the fashion industry. fashion film is my thing, and fashion design, and art and painting i just love it for no explainable reason. I just hate having to go to a school, and not have friends, and be expected to care about work, or rather actually engage, which before i could skate by not doing any work and being a pure artist. and not having friends. the girls at my school are so stupid1!!!! THEY RE SO just fucking dumb. but i m worried about my health, having come from an environment of mature, educated, interesting people, to this environment full of bimbos, could this be causing diabetic symptoms? or is it stress? or are the two inherently linked. I don t find I like to eat more than normal people, i don t think , but then again my mum is fat and forces us to eat a lot, a lot of which i refuse. i actually hate eating, like really hate it. All i want is a place to be alone to create, but my mother forces me to be tidy and such like. I hate living at home, but i can deal with it, i m just worried about my health, and the fact that i ve started wearing glasses basically full time.