Hello. I was given a dual-diagnosis in February of PTSD and drug addiction. Nearly 4 years ago, when I was 15, my grandfather unexpectedly passed away and then 6 weeks later Hurricane Sandy hit. My grandfather lived two streets away and was like a second father to me. The hurricane demolished his house and all of his and my grandmother’s belongings, and affected mine as well. I was displaced from my home. I never went through the stereotypical grieving process and prefer to keep everything bottled up inside. I did not, and still do not want to feel emotions regarding the events so I ignore my feelings. However, the memories are intrusive and I think of it daily. Specifically, the worst memories come at night and prevent me from sleeping so I turned to drugs and alcohol. Addiction runs in the family, and it was not long before I was using anything and everything excessively. I have tried to quit more times than I can count, but all of my attempts have been unsuccessful. Despite all of this, I perform excellently in school and even attended high school and college simultaneously and still received straight A’s at both institutions. My parents have no idea that I use drugs or have PTSD. I was diagnosed at a free-consultation at a Behavioral Health Center and all I got out of my session was the realization that being forced to talk about what happened and how i feel, makes me feel way worse. I know that I need to tackle the PTSD in order to get clean, but traditional talking therapy makes me feel so much worse! What can I do?